Category Archives: personal
I like metaphors…and I’m not sure if it’s because I like making something small and insignificant into something more meaningful, or if it’s really God trying to tell me something through the everyday motions (I’m going with the latter!). So, here it goes….
I was helping Lane brush his teeth the other day when I noticed he had a permanent tooth growing in behind his baby tooth. What in the world, I didn’t know that could happen! I felt his baby teeth and they were a bit lose, but not wiggly enough to even think about coming out. So, me in my worried state, called the dentist..they said it happens sometimes, but that they would take a look at him. As I was driving to the dentist, I thought, great, they will take care of it, they’ll pull out some of his baby teeth and make room for the permanent tooth. When we got there, the dentist said he didn’t really like to pull baby teeth out, and that even though they weren’t ready to come out, they would eventually be forced to do so because of the permanent tooth growing in behind. (of course, I’m thinking he’ll just have ugly teeth the rest of his life because they’ll never fall out!).
So what does a baby tooth have to do with anything?? Well, I guess the thought that was impressed on my heart was that sometimes in life we’re not ready to do things, maybe it’s finding a new job, telling someone about the love of God, or simply smiling at a stranger in the grocery store…but whether we’re ready or not, sometimes we are forced to make changes or decisions because if we don’t we’ll have ugly teeth forever! I don’t know what’s going on in your life, maybe you are having to make some tough choices, maybe you feel like the world is falling down on you, but you can hold fast to the truth that no matter what’s pushing on you, God will be there when your baby teeth fall out!
On closer examination, I notice several things that I never want to forget. No, he wasn’t wearing the preppy little boy clothes that I wanted him to wear, his shirt was tucked in his shorts like an old man, and his socks were pulled up…but that’s my boy! On an even closer look, this is what I see…
Wow, I never usually post personal stuff, but God has been tugging on my heart for a LONG time and I can’t ignore HIM anymore. My business has been growing by leaps and bounds and as greatful as I am, I am struggling to keep my head above water. My edit list is getting out of control and I’m such a perfectionist that I can’t trust anyone else to edit for me, even though it would take away some of the burden. I absolutely love what I do; I love capturing priceless moments between a husband and wife and children and their parents. But as I look around my house, I find that my walls are a bit empty for a photographer, where are the priceless memories of my husband and children? Everyday my two oldest boys are asking me when I’m going to be done on the computer, and everyday I say, “just wait, I’m almost done” or “I can’t right now, I’m too busy”. I don’t want to be that mom, I want to embrace every day with my husband and children, because in the end, that’s all that matters. I had praise and worship practice tonight at church and my pastor prayed that I would be able to have balance and put my priorities in order…then on the way home I heard this song by Sanctus Real called “Lead Me”. It’s written from a husband’s perspective, but it really touched my heart (is it a coincidence that I heard it right then? I think not…God is so intentional in HIS timing). What really pulled my heart strings was the second verse about his children…so, please listen to it!! (you’ll have to pause the music on the blog first)
So what does all of this rambling mean? It means I’m going to limit the amount of sessions I take, so I can stay on top of editing and spend time with my family. I think my client list will fall quite a bit when I tell you the next part…..I’m going to raise the price of my cd and copyright. (Yikes!!, don’t hate me!!) One of the reasons I’m making this change is because, I want you to order from my lab, so you get the quality, color, and detail you deserve! I know some of you are really ticked by now, trust me I don’t like change either. I haven’t quite decided the details of everything, and I’m not going to do this right away..so if you have an appointment already, dont’ worry. I’m just preparing you for what’s to come…I remember when AppleBees changed their honey mustard sauce and I was crazy angry because I didn’t like the new one as much. But, they must have changed it because it was better for them, and a few chicken finger platters later, I was in love with the new sauce!…ok, ok, I know this is nothing like changing dipping sauces, but I’m not changing things to make you angry, I’m doing it because in the end, it will be better for all of us. This is super super duper (yep I said super duper) hard for me to do, because I want everyone to be happy and I seriously have no backbone….but I need to focus on what’s best for my family. I will keep you posted on the changes I will be making. Please remember I love all of you sooooo much and it means a great deal to me when you choose me to take your pictures.