Have you ever driven by something a million times and never noticed it? It’s like one day it just catches your eye and you think, “How did I not see that before?”… Well, that happened to me today, but it wasn’t with an actual “object”…it was with a prayer.
I often pray a simple prayer for God to bless me, so I can bless others. Sounds a little selfish, huh…kinda like, “Dear God, make me happy and I’ll make someone else happy too!” But, as I was driving home from the store, I prayed that same prayer, “Dear Lord, bless me so I can bless others”…and I heard God reply, “I am and have been blessing you this whole time.” “What?? are you kidding me? I’m not feeling blessed, I’m not being showered with goodness (although, this Carmel mocha from McDonald’s is helping me feel a bit better…), I’m not seeing rainbows, and I certainly don’t feel like smiling. Then, tell me, how am I being blessed??”
Let me just say, if you ask God a question…you can’t be afraid of the answer. He gently pointed out to me that just because I’m not feeling the “joys” of blessings, it doesn’t mean that I’m not blessing others. We all go through high and low points in our lives, but have you ever considered that the hard times in your life will somehow help you to bless another? Maybe you’ve had a miscarriage and you just can’t understand why it happened, but then a year later you find yourself holding the hand of a young mother who just lost her baby. Maybe you’ve lost a loved one to cancer and you find yourself being the shoulder your friend cries on when the doctors tell her she has stage three cancer. Maybe you’re the person who was abused growing up and you find yourself sharing your story to others that are where you used to be…..
During hard times, it’s not easy to see how you are being blessed, but it doesn’t mean that God isn’t going to take your pain and your struggles, and be able to help someone else who is hurting, someone else who is going through what you already went through.
So, am I still going to pray for God to bless me, so I can bless others?? The answer is yes, because if just one person is helped as a result of my suffereing… then it’s all worth it.
Laura Story’s song, “Blessings”, is the perfect example of what I needed to hear. (please pause the blog music to your right before you push play)